This afternoon I saw an artist I like posting about their re arranged tour which they've pushed back to Jan-Feb 2022. And they are playing at a local pub to me (Hare & Hounds in Birmingham) which is quite a coup I suppose for the pub, the artist is a solo singer songwriter but is also a member of a better known group who've had Grammy nominations. I thought "boom, yes, go for that".
Asked the Mrs if she wanted to come with me, out of courtesy, she didn't mind etc so I thought no worries I'll go by myself, considering it's a stand up venue at the back of a pub and she is small and doesn't like it.
I Google image searched it to remind myself what it looked like and there are some images of the place full... And I've suddenly gone cold on the idea. It's not even because of Covid concerns as I'm sure it won't be allowed to be on if it's not safe etc, it's literally the idea of being stuck in that space with that many people, it's actually made me feel quite anxious even thinking about it.
That wouldn't have been the case before the lockdowns (though I did decide not to go to a gig in Digbeth a couple of years back because I felt I'd get mugged, I don't think that's an unreasonable assumption though!). Anybody else feeling like this?
I want to support the artist and the venue but I just don't think I can face putting myself in that situation even that far into the future. I know I'm being silly, but I need to learn to observe these kinds of reactions and see what they are all about.
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I'm a fairly solitary person but can be sociable normally, perhaps that's the case no longer! Ch Ch Ch Changes etc etc
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I never liked being in a crowd or a crowded room/venue anyway, it makes me panicky especially if everyone around me is going in different directions - like in a pub, or a Tube carriage.
So, nothing to do with lockdown really, but going back to these situations will certainly make me uncomfortable.
Lockdown is anti-bowels.
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Get off at the next station. Near enough all stations have public toilets. They're nearly always clean and close to the platform.
Do a big shit.
Get the next train in 5minutes time.
London??? Shit yourself in front of a carriage full of lawyers!!
I've no issue about mixing with people again once it's allowed but it's the gig scenario that seems too much to handle, and as I say it's not because of a Covid risk as much as literally just having to be have people so closely around me.
Maybe I need to setup a "live stream from real gigs" service for those of us too much of a wimp to want to go haha
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a regular venue for us is already pencilling in dates for gigs...
pre covid we would get 250-300 bodies in front of us... every time we gigged there a few days later at least one of us would come down with a cold... that many folk packed in tightly, hot and sweaty was a breeding ground for germs...
I guess now they may limit the number of people but it’s still filling me with trepidation about gigging there... even if they limit it to a third of normal it’s still 100 folk all breathing at you
can honestly say I don’t want to do it!... even the thought of being in a studio rehearsing with the rest of the band is bum clenching at the moment.
It's not sympathy i need haha it's just something I've noticed that has changed, I just have to accept it was the new normal i think. It is a shame that it means I can't support the artist or the venue more than being any real problem for me personally, but I'm sure that both will do just fine without my £20
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