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Someone in my family said the same thing when our Mum was diagnosed with cancer.
I don't envy you Thomas, but I certainly admire you- you are doing a fantastic job under truly awful circumstances.
I can't say anything else but that.
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@octatonic did that person take it hard afterward if they were in denial?
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@thomasross - be brave - I read your blog and whilst my mum died of cancer over 30 years ago, your story is bringing back memories off what it was like with here - It certainly is not easy and doesn't get any better - best wishes
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I can't imagine doing any different and it's rewarding, though I'm going to try and get some "me" time soon so I can go see the new "It" film..
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Gist was - medical expert thinks things could have been a lot different had things been done right 2 years ago.
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Indeed, same goes if you are ever down in Dorset.
Update! District nurses are coming weekly now, they raised the possibility of a hospital bed in one room but Sheena passed on that. We have two toilet seats, a bed rail, shower chair, incontinence pads, and other home aids. Waiting to get a stair lift fitted. I massage her feet and legs every night due to fluid build-up.
Oh, got a proper wheelchair! She can't walk for more than 10 seconds before collapsing so I'm wheeling her outside in that now. You know I used to have worries about growing older and taking care of her but I realise now that was all such rubbish - you do anything for the one you love, there's just no thinking twice about it. It's totally been an honour and privilege to know and help her, if that doesn't sound too corny.
She's 100% hoping she'll get a hospice bed but they're usually for the last 2-3 days of life and aren't guaranteed. We have all the injectible "just in case" medicines in the cupboard, too.
We were going over 10 years' worth of photos last night again - she shed a few tears remembering how she once looked (damn steroids!) and how we've been robbed of our life together. Also went over her living will and beneficiaries with one of her sisters and I. The children are waking up to it a bit more.. concern being raised, more help being given, some red eyes.
There's a fair old routine before every meal now - measure her blood sugar, give her pills etc. All written down with dates and times. Scarily, the last few days she's been having pain again .... the medicine has been able to rid her of that, at the cost of steroid-induced diabetes and bloating, but it's back now. So this morning she's been in her room all day and had to take two lots of morphine. The stairs are too much, so I'm getting everything up to her on a tray. She just wants it to end now, she says it herself - it's an awful shame. I don't want it to end, obviously, but I got a fright watching "stop the horror" as I mentioned in another thread... I hope it wont be anything like that for her or the children. She still has her appetite and there's no sign of jaundice or anything so that's still an ok sign, but the fatigue is all-day now... she can only half-open her eyelids and can't be left alone. I just hope it will be peaceful / painless for her. She says if she's not able to speak but has conciousness then she'll give my hand a little squeeze to let me know she's still here. Looking at the decline in one month, I think over the next month she might be bed-bound but we'll see. She wants to see my birthday which is at the end of October. She's done everybody five years' worth of birthday and Christmas cards which I'm to give them afterward.
I popped into work the other day but I'm glad I'm not back there actually working - my mind just wouldn't be "on it". We're all managing to keep the chores going, look after Sheena etc. The house is largely done, just one more big thing to do. And that social worker who was disturbing her autistic daughter is no longer on the scene so that's all sorted.
I'm going to try and get a photo or two up..
Oh and she got a new haircut - we wont be able to manage her long hair so looks now like Jamie Lee Curtis style hair!
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